Help me.

How am I supposed to deal with this? 

Will my heart be able to hold this weight? 

Will this feeling of guiltiness ever stop? 

Maybe if we hadn't met everything would be easier. 

All of these would have never happened. 

He would be happy, enjoying his relationship, instead of being sad and heartbroken. 

Why can't I help but to wonder if anything could have been different. 

I could have been more responsible, could have stopped all this, could have said no. But God I haven't felt like this in such a long time. 

I can't help but to want to be with him all the time, and I know I should have controlled myself. 

I shouldn't have let my feelings get to this point. 

Why do I always have to make things complicated? Why can't everything be simpler? 

Why is it so hard for us to be together if we enjoy our company? 

I'm scared this might be the end. 

I'm scared my heart may not resist the decision he has made. 

I truly don't want this to end.