I need all of this to stop now. 
All I can think about is "come on, kill yourself".
Because, if it was that easy... I would have done it long time ago.
This bullshit is driving me crazy, and I can't fucking stop it. I can't help it. 
I'm going mad.
And what can I do? Nothing. 
I mean, what if I don't really want to save me from myself? 
And what if I get lost and that's all? Everything ends.
If it was that easy...